Loss

I wanna move on
but I'm stuck in here, this scene,
while u're going far far away leaving me behind.
I am loss.Don't know where to go.
I used to have my 'compass' now I lost it.
No direction.
I am stuck.
I am blur, and loss.
Where to go.
Send me my guardian angel so that I can walk on this earth again.

jantina ketupat....jantan atau betina?

hah? biar betik! ketupat ada jantina?
ya kwn2 betul..uhuhuh

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sempena raya haji yg bakal mnjelang ni kan..
nak cerita psl ketupat sikit..ni bkn ketupat nasi tu...ni ketupat pulut...a.k.a ketupat daun palas.

I am not sure whether this is myth or facts...tp my mom n grandma used to say that..
ketupat jantan n ketupat betina...
ok..utk proses menganyam ketupat palas ni..ada 3 stages.

1- 'buka daun palas'
***daun palas tu telipat2, bila buka jadi mcm kipas, so kn la 'buka' meaning kita lipat dia mcm ketupat, x letak pulut lagi so dat sng ms nak membalut nnt..ms ini lah kita buat ketupat jantan. nah..cm na nk wat ketupat jantan? anda lipat kepala daun tu jd 3 segi, lipat la dlm 3 kali cm tu..pas tu amek ekor daun tu...sumbat kat lipatan 3 segi tadi...soryn la xde gmbar, tp ms ni buat x cntik pon xpa heehe

2-'proses membalut ketupat'
***anda rungkai balik ketupat jantan tadi....masa ni la kita letak pulut yg dah separuh masak ditanak tadi... pas tu...daun tadi, basahkan sikit dgn air, pas tu buat mcm kelonsong....sumbat lah pulut tadi dlm kelonsong tu biar padat, baru kita lipat, or anyam jadi ketupat betina.

**beza antara ketupat betina dan ketupat jantan ialah cara lipat saja...rasa sm ja...huhu it's just kreativiti n kekemasan. org tua2 akan mrh kalu nmpk ketuat jantan dihidangkan.huhuh...kalau anak dara buat ni...mmg la x jd mnantu uhuhuh...

3-proses merebus ketupat
***ketupat yg da siap dibalut td, akan disimpul kat kepala dia tu...so dat pulut tu x de la terburai nnt ms nak merebus. ok...rebus ketupat **wink2..smpai pulut msk...

#da msk tu blh la dimakan ..nk mkn pns2 pon boleh....sjuk pon blh..
kalu mkn pns2 kan...cicah dgn gula merah or susu pekat mnis , lemak tu...dgn mnis nya...uih sdp! tp jgn diamal slalu slp2 berkepuk lemak dlm bdn t! :) ....ketupat nk mkn dgn serunding or rendang pon blh...ngeee mkn sj pon okay! sbb pulut tu slalunya dah ditanak dgn santan,manis2 lemak2..huhhu..
#portion santan dan pulut tu..x bp engt ratio dya  kalu x silap 1 kg santan 2 1/2 kilo pulut..eh pulut pon kn tgk gak..mak saya slalu guna pulut susu....kalu pulut hitam rs nya lain pulok portion dye...
#tp ratio kn btul baru la ketupat tu rs sdap..x keras sgt x lemak sgt..krg santan ketupat keras, lebih santan ketupat sgt berminyak dan berlemak, lembik...
dah mcm chef la pulok....

Happy Monday! (Kedah version)

hallo2!
#i'm now in the office,
at my office desk in front of this lovey laptop, n hitting this keyboards to as inputs for this entry........and....I'm alone.  :"(
my colleague is not here yet, she got something to do in UTP..ya, UTP...huhuh, my boss n my sv is not around..outstation to BRUNEI! wished to follow....just....wished :"(
# started my Monday with a bun spread with Tuna......yummy2! n ...plain water...it's not diet...it's just..I'm not that hungry! huhu can u believe it? no la...I was late...n just manage to grab that bun n eat.... :) ...will going downstairs to mini mart to grab something later.
#Talking bout Monday..I remember my grandma, used to say Monday as SENAYAN...
.-S-E-N-A-Y-AN- instead of ISNIN in bahasa...I thought it's the Kedah vocab la...caused there's few other Kedahan use SENAYAN instead of ISNIN...
whatever it is, still brings the same meaning...ISNIN...MONDAY..MONTAG(german), SENIN (Indonesia), LUNDE (french) correct? uhuhuh
#again talking about Monday, today is 31st Oct, the end of October...one month of internship n I survived.. heck? really..yup..still standing! huhuh...congrats Nad...keep it up for the next 6 month erkkkkkkkkk?  "~"
n..another 5 more days to go back to KEDAH! *wink...n...6  more days to RAYA..can't wait to go back home..ur real home! meet ur family n enjoy ur mom's cook!!!
#ok la...works are coming...slowly n slowly n I'ed better get going... daaa :)
wish me luck, happy n have safe journey way back home :) thanx for reading

entry ini ttg mkn

I am not really a good cook nor a great baker! 

---Puding Jelly Laici--

whatever u called it...the red layer is the jelly and the white layer is the custard

--from the top : laici yg dipotong2!--

it's look funny, jnji msuk perut sdh

---Oreo Layer Cake--

...from the top..oreo..

selepas dipotong...ok..x cntik....told ya i'm not a good baker! :p

---Apam Comel2---

this one is a twin project with my mak su,...mmg comel..

forgot to snap the pic of that apom after getting it out of that acuan..  :p

Not  a good baker, nor  agood cook though I love it ....kdg2 kalau rajin ea..huhuh

but hey ya one thing for sure! I love to eat! 

-choc indulgence-

-nasi dalam talam-

-durian-

-kisses-

-ice lemon tea-

-sizzling mee-

-pizza-

-nasi pataya-

-kueteow kungfu-

ahhh! mau makan semuanya! addicted esp pizza n dat indulgence!

The neighborhood part 1

The first one week I've been here, 

I was shocked and curious with this new neighborhood.

People here didn't actually worried about their stuffs-motorcycle, cars, tv,furniture.etc.

They actually left their tv, and furniture outside of the house but still in the gate,

but then their cars and motorcycle, they actually left it outside the gate!Yeah! outside the gate u people!

It was so different than in my hometown!

People put their motor in the house!in the gate or in the house!

Punya takut kena curi..but then, here? x takut pon?

wonder...is it really safe?

Me myself, the first night I was here, I woke up every 1 or 2 hours to check on whether my lovely wave is there or not.I was not sure about the safety though I used few pad locks to lock my motor! 

Can't u see how paranoid I am?

owh! I am so curious about that, Then I asked one mak cik in front of my house.

She said, it is a usual condition here, even sometimes, people don't even locked their gate!

What? *respect 

caused she said, "orang2 sini tak buat kerja tu (mencuri, merompak) kot org luar x taw la." 

dang! *respect!

But still this mak cik lock her gate in case there's any incident!

berjaga-jaga)

for me, I still have to berjaga-jaga, ya la, maybe the safety here is perfect good, but still, incident! all this cases is unexpected. I can't ignore the possibilities of that stealing, robbery cases might happened to us, so we have to be careful la about this. 

some more, there's police ronda2 here, around the neighborhood, not sure la, but that police told us once! while we were in the police station. but still! be careful! 

Thanx You ALLAH

I am glad that I still have my parents by my side.
...so sad looking at those kids that are being abandoned by their parents.
A father that have new family and don't even care of his children
A mother that have inner problem and have to stay away from her children.
Thanx god that these children still have their grandparents to take care of them.
An old grandfather that should have enjoy his retirement life, but have to work hard to feed his 'new' family.
A grandmother that should have a relaxing life after tears of struggling taking care of his family, but have to work hard, taking care of her abandoned grandchildren.
They are old enough to live this hard life, but yet you burdened them with your's?
Astaghfirullahala'zim, minta simpang, harap ini jd pengajaran.
A child who wished to have her parents by her side
A child who loves her parents so much until they hate their grandparents so much for separating them with their parents..
Sumpah, I am so sorry for these children.
and I am glad that I still have my parent and my family by my side.
Thank You Allah for my mother.
Thank you Allah for my father,
Thank you Allah for my brothers,
Thak you Allah for this 'rahmat'

Baju Melayu Baju Kurung

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 :: Black scooter ::

 :: Baju Melayu Kuning Air ::

 :: Black Samping ::

 :: White Shades ::

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:: Blue Wave ::

:: Baju Kurung Hijau Serindit ::

:: Balck Tudung ::

:: Natural Eyes - no shades ::

uh...can u see the difference? 

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Changing

the new look for her beautiful world/notapopinjay/keyboard ketak ketuk or watever name u called it...
is PINK! 
isn't it sweet? uhu...ayu sikit kan?
Don't know why, I used to hate pink, though I love her sister - RED
Pink n nornadiajamal is never a best friend but still can be a friend,
because, though I hate PINK but I received lots of gift in PINK color, it still ok...tak dpt nak nolong
but the bad is ...though I hate PINK but I always 'ter' suka, 'ter'minat, 'ter'beli something in PINK color!
blame my eyes for looking at it, n blaming my hearts for the desire to buy it, blaming my hands for buying it!
since in the primary nope! kindergarten, I be friend with them who loves PINK, this continues until uni life but still, x goyah beb! huhuuh
they can'y change my mind from hate PINK to love PINK.
but then...now? haah don't know *angkat bahu, innocent face
blaming my hearts la for the desire to put pink color in this blog! ya!ya! blaming the heart! huhhuh

but hey, Miss RED no worries! u're still the first in my heart!  (",)
Miss PINK, hmmm is in 2nd, 3rd kot? (",)

My Choices

sometimes...aku menegeluh juga...not sometimes..slalu..
mengeluh ttg kerja yg kena buat skrg...
I think I did lots of work that does not relate to my course..
mengeluh...n..the end..case..UNSOLVED....x selesai.. sebab?
no action..tapi what action that I supposed to take as this was my choices from the beginning...
ya...even bkn choices yg suka rela...even it is paksa rela...it still...my choices..
though the choices of taking this decision is not 'suka' its 'paksa'..
but then I choose to 'rela' to been 'paksa' huhuh..............so..still my choices la kan..
jd..x blh nak mengeluh lebih2 becoz..whatever it is..will be pointed back to me, myself..
Therefore, I try to turn this -ve thoughts to +ve...
by saying...............
this is experience! *wink  *wink...
so..
walau saya mengeluh yang saya buat keja mcm dekat law firm not in an engineering firm, but still...this is an experience for me...nnt bila sy terlibat dgn bnda2 berkaitan dgn law...at least I can survived...maybe a bit? insyaAllah.
dan walau saya mengeluh yang saya perlu buat kerja mat despatch bukan kerja trainee for IT and IS, tapi..ini adalah experience to me so dat later when I have to deliver parcel or deal with post or 'fedex' or 'nationwide' things I have that experience and at least dlm satu hari..ada juga perkara lain yg awak buat..bkn stakat file management je....boring kot!
dan walau saya perlu buat all sorts of accounting and business things not so into IS, but then no worries, you have an experience of managing business, sng nnt nak jadi manager...:)

*lagipun ni bukan slalu...hanya kerja selingan

besides, my main aim for intern is to learn new things kan? so...you learn, you gain experience, x kisah praktik atau tidak dlm kos aku nnt, still you have some knowledge yg blh di'apply in the future or in your personal life, besides..awak study pon...awak nak ilmu itu kekal,bukan semata-mata degree kan nad?
so..........dah positive ni...esok haraplah dpt mulakan hari dgn snyuman,............(",)
x da la aku memening dlm pejabat dgn muka monyok spnjang masa kan nad!  :)
hope so................ok...good night!

what a small world- keciknya dunia!

#waiting for tomorow- apa nak jadi dekat office ni? mmg rs mls.. web x siap lagi..
#nak pakai bj apa esok?
#kenapa dekat jelapang x de fast food terdekat ea? kfc,mcd, or anything? n why the heck choices of food dekat sini not varies ya? aaarghhh!
#bohsan!

what a small world!
rasa nyesal sbb dulu ms study oop/java x wat baik dgn ga aku, x bljr baik2..
sbb GA utk subjek yg ak mls dtg lab dulu...is now my supervisor for intern!
what a small world sgt2 lah kan!
pas tu...lagi mmg la dye slalu gak kitorg smbang2 psl utp...as dye pon student utp, phD...
adeyh...
n las friday br taw..birthday kitorg pon sm... 1-sept  ngeee
bkn slalu jumpa ntah la..x taw la tp ak jrg jumpa org yg sm birthday ngn aku,... yg 31 ogos rmai la..
hah...
x taw la nak ckp apa lagi...
skrg tgh bohsan gila....
intern ni...bila dah keja...engt best..engt blh hidup sndri..pegang duet best...tp..
wee lagi bersyukur la p kls...apsal dulu mls p kls nad?
keje ni asyik buat bnda yg sm..p keje blik keje dok umah...mkn, solat..sembang2 sat tdor..esk pon sm..
nk tdor ptg pon x blh....ngntuk ja...dok kat office tu smpai sakit pinggang...adeyh kalu kls dulu
blh gak la nak tkr2 tmpat, p kls, sejam dua jam pas tu blik bilik, x ckp tdor blh smbng tdor tp skrg? hampeh!
waa missing the old days!

blur........

finish my task....*yeah!
sv was absent today ......*yeah again
so do Mr.Boss .*another yeah!
5 minutes to 5..then can go back!  *yeah100x

i'm so certain that life bring us to a destination
every path have it's own destination that then lead to the main one - HEREAFTER
i realized that life is giving me few hints about what am I going to be in few more years,
but still, being human you never know the future,you just can predicts, thinks what's best for your life and take action that you've confident with or that you've to.
then wait for the results, whatever actions taken comes with risk and effects whether it is bad or not, we never know.

reflects myself for the past few years back...........
1st hint : involved most in management since secondary schools till university
2 nd hint : accidentally involved in technical things which I hate the most,
         **I tried to get myself away from oil n gas things by not joining any oil n gas company though it is
             impossible since you study in PETRONAS nad, but then ended to be in the company that supply
             most oil n gas equipment and safety equipment to the oil n gas company - carigali hess, petronas
             labuan...dang! 
3 rd hint : accidentally involved in business things which also I hate the most.
         ** I discovered that nadia n business is not a compatible pair when i was in primary school- opened a
              booth during 'HARI KANTIN ' sekolah, and have to sell few handmade handkerchief and jun
              foods, yeah! managed to sell everything but, I am so happy but the customer is not! ahhah I forced
              them to buy that!..there's one guy wants to buy 'sumi'(jelly) it cost 3 bijik $0.50..he wanted to buy
              only one sumi,that costed him around $0.15 kot...but I am so mls kira, so I said "ambil 3 x boleh 1!"
              ngaa, then he took 3, with muka masam, x puas ati..since then I felt so guilty and kasihan to that poor guy!  
         **if you ask me for ideas in business and how to market your products and excell, I can give you
             thousands or perhaps million, but if you ask me to do it...nga you have to give me thousands or
             million reasons and words to encourage me and push me to do it...yes! I am sorry

so of all hints above, I still figurin out what is the destination or what is the path of my journey?
once comes in mind - secretary of production manager...but hey! baik jd boss! ngeeee *over kan?
whatever it is, I do believed that life has it owns plan for me that need to be reveal when the times comes
and for that, there's still lots of things to do and the journey is still far far away, so be patient and go with the flow, 'sabar separuh dari iman' and I believe success is always with me, Allah will always be with me, guide me and so do all my beloved ones, be grateful with what you have so far, enjoy them to the fullest before it was taken away and you are left with nothings but regrets. *udah mcm pakar motivasi*

ok..it's 5 pm/.....nak balik..wait la ea..
heading to ipoh..in any minutes
bye

first time

#currently listening to santa esmeralda - you're my everything
#at the office -boss is not coming yet,
boss is not coming yet,
taking this opportunity to update the blog
about last night incident
as requested by my lovely housemate merangkap driver for the last three days until I get my license back.
back to the title- It's the first time I went to Balai Polis n make report
report on the lost of my purse that contained all important document inside.
it is not been stolen or ragut or rob , it's i admit, it's our own carelessness and mistakes.
i lost my purse together with my friend, farhana bujairimi at pasar malam taman jati, ipoh on the way back home, taman meru. this is because i asked her to keep my purse with her, then something happened than it lost, we just realised about that after dinner around 8.30pm..went back to pasar mlm, looked through,hopeless, x jumpa.
*sgt sdeyh, yes, i'm valueless now,- no ic, no matric card, no bank card, no license..no money.  :"(

then went to police station around 10pm after finished watching Cinta Elysa (the driver sgt fanatic with this drama so have to wait for her la kan.)
that was the first time I went to police station and thank god, there's kind-hearted mak cik n pak cik polis, helped us, buat report.
there's also few police-no uniform, looks like just coming from OPS whatever.
one of the police said to me n fiza-
pak cik polis : "ni xde lesen ni x boleh bawa moto tahu, walau ade repot polis pon tapi kalu tak repot jpj kena saman, masuk mahkamah kalau kena tahan."
fiza talked to me dgn kuat smpai pak cik polis dgr : "eleh nak ke pttc tu mana ada polis!"
nad : "pak cik2, dekat pttc tu x ade polis kan?"
then, thath pak cik buat muka mrh, big eyes.
uhuh...kitorg da gelak2, kena marah. then goes, bisinglah that police station sekejap.
we went back at 10.30pm. should have paid rm2 for pengesahan but then, since the office closed, so we went back this morning before went to work.
thanx god, they remembered us and the same mak cik n pak cik polis were at the counter.
so, now just have to go to JPN,JPJ, CIMB (thanx god, there's still no transactions made ,and i've cancelled the card this morning), UTP.
have to go through all this process, aigooo capek seyh!
btw, it's a teladan for me.  serik!

my 1st day

I can't really describe my feelings...mixed!
I was surprised to see that my boss is actually my GA for OOP las two semester back.
Though she didn't recognized me at all, but she did recognized UTP students, their behaviors and the syllabus of BIS/ICT..
so what excuses can you give to someone who really experts about your field of studies and nearly experts about your previous surrounding.
For sure, she did have some kind of expectations on you *talking to myself-only not sure whether it is good or bad
If it is good, is the effects will be bad in the future?
if is is bad, is the effects will be good in the future?
we never knows..*sigh future!
The other surprise is this company deals more with your university
and your lecturer or to be specific your HOD for your course involves directly in the project developed by your company.
so, sooner or later you'll be meeting him *by chances
is it good or bad?
one of my friend said. "It's good though!maybe you'll get an offer from him to pursue your studies in master if he is satisfied with your performances?"  *pray- hope so!
but what if
he told your boss about his expectations of his students?   *talking to myself-Ahhh! nad, you can't escape
anymore!
another surprise is your friends who supposed to have intern with you together in the same building, same level, different suite actually have the wrong place..she shouldn't be there, small misunderstanding, and it turned out to be you the only one left in the building among the three.  *how will i get through this later?
another surprise is when you go to report duty, the pic in that company said,
:"why report duty at 10 am?isn't the office starts at 8.30am? interns also starts at 8.30am!"
:"why are you here?you're not supposed to be here!go to level 14"
at that time my hearts said: 'kerek betul minah ni! intern je pon, tu pun first day!'
and when i get into my company...Alhamdulillah! the colleagues are good, friendly and always helped me when indeed and sometimes, they will asked you 'are you ok?' , 'can you do this?'.
there's only 4 people in the team, though that, the surrounding is quiet ok! i feel like i'm with my team project in UTP.
though you get lots of work on the first day but that work loads, relates with what you studied in university.
and so far..managing the files, normal office works, and then create system for the company- ur intern project.
the best is, they gives you fully freedom to do your work, flexi, no punch in or out, just do your job, finish it then what the hell are you going to do pun...they don't mind..and that is why on the first day, I've log in to fb using office pc..hehe sorry boss.
they treated you as an employee, that is good because you can enjoy same privilege as the real employee have, except for the payment lah
hoping for good for my 8 month intern.
btw, my company is looking for an employee/pre-intern/ intern.
qualification: degree or diploma holder in EE, ME, CE or any engineering based
salary- to be negotiated,
do let me know if you're interested