It's been a year of ups and downs!

Welcome 2013

2012 is coming to an end!
Alhamdulillah and syukur for all the happiness and achievement gained for this year.
Alhamdulillah also for all the hard works and difficulties faced for this year that it made me a new and better person.
I feel blessed and lucky to have all the loves from people around me especially the family,
Thank you mak, abah, abang, nasrul and nafiz for all the supports and loves, u made me a better and strong person.
Alhamdulillah,
And today is my second paper for the second last semester in UTP, may passed with flying colours insyaAllah.
Hoping for better days and charms in 2013!
xoxo

Daging Salai masak hijau

Belek2 kabinet dapur, ada daging salai yang mak buat hari tu...hmm yum2 ari tu x sempat rasa kan? kali ni, meh kita masak!

so, mak pon tunjuklah cara2 nak masak daging salai, ari tu mak buat masak lemak, tapi kali ni...mak sibuk jahit, so tinggalkan dapur tu untuk anaknya ni...memang sendiri punya resipi la noks!

my own resipi, ilham dari sambal hijau mak ika, negori katanya, 

dah namanya mak aku ni rajin menanam, belakang umah ada serai, tunggu apa lagi..

maka bermulalah resipinya: 

bahan2:

1 labu bwg besar,* 

2 ulas bwg putih *

6 batang cili padi *

2 batang serai dihiris halus *

1 cm halia *

daging salai (agak2 dgn kuantiti bahan)

2 sudu bsr minyak masak,

2 sd bsr susu cair

1 keping asam keping

*dikisar halus

cara2: 

1-panaskan kuali, masukkan minyak masak, dan tuang bahan kisar tadi, masukkan daging, masak sampai daging tadi empuk dan kering, boleh tambah air untuk cepatkan empuknya. 

2- bila dah kering, susu cair,asam keping, gula, garam, bhn perasa, sesuaikan rasa. 

3- tunggu sehingga susu kering sedikit,baru tutup api dan hidangkan.

gambarnya tak sempat nak snap, tapi baunya mengancam lah, mak yang dah kenyang pon tertarik-tarik nak makan. pedas, memang sangat pedas lah sebab letak cili hijau saja kan, so sapa yg nk kurangkan pedas boleh letak air asam jawa sedikit, nk bg masam n masukkan gula untuk sebatikan balik rasa.. 

Not a thing dat can make me okay.
Aziey sent a wassap saying 'Don't give up sayang!'
and I can't say I won't sbb I've did.
and the only one that I can trust is myself.
One who make someone else giving up with her own life. what should we call that?

Dyslexia

Busy bee! Busy me!
Been busy lately, FYP-ing..
p/s: FYP - Final Year Project.
Ops....It is final year baby!
5 months to graduation!!!!! and I am excited
but, let's not forget on FYP...it's the requirement btw.
Well, talking about FYP, I am developing applications for dyslexia, specifically focus on teaching a dyslexic to write alphabets.And here's some knowledge about dyslexia.

FYI, Intro to Dyslexia.

1- Dyslexia or developmental reading disorder is literally defined as ‘difficulties of words’. The term derived from two Greek words, ‘dys’ which means abnormalor impaired and ‘lexis’ means language or words (McNair, 2009). 

2- Dyslexia is not a disease but a medical condition (News Straits Times, March, 16, 2009)

3- Dyslexia hinders language disabilities of a children such as reading, writings and spelling commensurate with their intellectual abilities as defined by World Federation Neurologist, 1986. 

4- Dyslexic is referred as an individual who suffers from dyslexia (Oxford Fajar, 2000). 

5- A dyslexic is not poorly taught, lazy or stubborn in fact they possess general or sometimes above the level of intelligence but experience a learning disorder (Maklumat Pendidikan Khas, 2005)

6- Dyslexic may find conventional classrooms is not interesting and always  find excuse of skipping schools. (Devaraj & Roslan, 2006).

Read more: BBC Health

Symptoms of a Dyslexic 
General

• Appears bright, highly intelligent, and articulate but unable to read, write, or spell at grade level.

• Labelled lazy, dumb, careless, immature, "not trying hard enough," or "behavior problem."

• Isn't "behind enough" or "bad enough" to be helped in the school setting.

• High in IQ, yet may not test well academically; tests well orally, but not written.

• Feels dumb; has poor self-esteem; hides or covers up weaknesses with ingenious compensatory strategies; easily frustrated and emotional about school reading or testing.

• Talented in art, drama, music, sports, mechanics, story-telling, sales, business, designing, building, or engineering.

• Seems to "Zone out" or daydream often; gets lost easily or loses track of time.

• Difficulty sustaining attention; seems "hyper" or "daydreamer."

• Learns best through hands-on experience, demonstrations, experimentation, observation, and visual aids.

• Reading or writing shows repetitions, additions, transpositions, omissions, substitutions, and reversals in letters, numbers and/or words.

• Reads and rereads with little comprehension.

• Spells phonetically and inconsistently.

• Trouble with writing or copying; pencil grip is unusual; handwriting varies or is illegible.

• Clumsy, uncoordinated, poor at ball or team sports; difficulties with fine and/or gross motor skills and tasks; prone to motion-sickness.

• Can count, but has difficulty counting objects and dealing with money.

• Can do arithmetic, but fails word problems; cannot grasp algebra or higher math.

• Poor memory for sequences, facts and information that has not been experienced.

• Had unusually early or late developmental stages (talking, crawling, walking, tying shoes).

• Prone to ear infections; sensitive to foods, additives, and chemical products.

• Mistakes and symptoms increase dramatically with confusion, time pressure, emotional stress, or poor health.

Read more: 37 Symptoms of Dyslexia (Dyslexia.com)

Having above symptoms doesn't mean that an individual is dyslexic, it needs few procedures for that. In Malaysia there are Instrument Senarai Semak Disleksia (ISD)- Ujian Saringan bagi menentukan keberangkalian murid mengalami masalah pembelajaran spesifik Disleksia by MOE. A student must be monitored and observed for at least 6months by the Language Teacher (Guru Bahasa Melayu) according to 50 items listed in the instruments before being diagnosed by doctors.

Being diagnosed with dyslexia doesn't mean the end for an individual, there are many successful individual with dyslexia : 

1- Albert Einstein, Sir Isaac Newton, Wright Brothers, Steven Hawkins, Louis

    Pasteur,Thomas Edison, Alexender Graham Bell (Scientist), 

2- Agatha Christie, Hans Christian Anderson (Writer), 

3- Sylvetser Stallon,Tom Cruise , Cher (Actor/Actress).

4- Pablo Picasso, Leonardo Da Vincci (Artist)  

5- Lee Kuan Yew, John.F.Kennedy, Napoleon Bonaparthe,( Politician)  

"In this world of ordinary people, Thank goodness there's you." BBC Education.

Dialog dengan bonda

Panggilan telefon yg pertama :
I : Mak kat mana ni?
Bonda: Mak nak naik motor ni dengan abah.
I : nak p mana?
Bonda: Nak p Kamdar, beli kain dekat saya je, awak tak ada sebab awak dah ada banyak kain!
I : errk???Amboi
Bonda: Tak lah, nak shopping kain untuk Nafiz dengan Nasrul dengan abah, sambil tengok-tengok untuk mak sama, alah. release tension sat dengan abah.
(dalam hati, amboi nak romantik semedang mak aku ni)

Panggilan kedua

I: mak, minggu depan cuti lagi, seminggu
Bonda: hahhahahhahhahah (terus gelak lagi)
I : (ikut gelak)
Bonda: So?
I : Tak tau nak balik ke tak, takut kena marah asyik balik saja.
Bonda: hahahahhaha habis, tak kan kau nak jadi penunggu kat situ? Balik!
I: Tapi hari tu dah cakap dekat tok ngn semua org balik bulan 12 atau bulan 1
Bonda: Dah cuti, nak buat macam mana? Kena baliklah.
I : ehem...kalau balik boleh makan free kan mak?
Bonda: Hah, balik! save duet nak makan!Balik!
I : ok.

Terpaksalah balik seminggu lagi

It's just come across suddenly:

Saya ,asih lagi manusia biasa,
sama fitrahnya seperti wanita-wanita lain,
bisa menangis bila tgk cerita korea,
bisa teresak-esak bila baca novel cinta,
bisa melompat seperti kanak-kanak ribena bila kemahuan diikuti,
bisa senyum sampai telinga kalau sudah senang hati,
dan tidak lupa juga,
bisa melenting bila dikhianati,
bisa beremosi ikut suka hati,
so, sebagai manusia sekerdil ini,
mengapa nak bongkak meninggi diri,
sedangkan yang maha hebat Allah yang hakiki.

Terima Kasih

Terima kasih daun keladi,
Setiap wish amat dihargai,
Walau dah cukup umur mengundi,
Tapi hati masih kanak2 ribena lagi! :)

Task before Raya

To do list before Raya

1. KM - Assignment 2: Online submission on 16/08/2012
2. KM - Group Assignment : Online submission on 24/08/2012
3. MS- Report and Video hands on submission on 17/08/2012
4. CF - 2 case studies analysis , hands on submission on 17/08/2012
5. PF - Group assignments, hands on submission on 16/08/2012
6. CF , test 3 on 16/08/2012

so, how am I going to survive in this 3 days left? 

OMG! kaman!kaman! Nad berjuang! :"(

Love and Parents

I know you're a big girl,
but please know one thing, every mother and every father in this world
will always treat you as their little girl.
It's true!
If possible, they always wanted to feed you
always wanted to buy you a barbie doll
but they realised that you wouldn't like it.
owh it's ok! but when it comes to relationship, they won't tolerate!
they can't stop thinking and judging their daughter's mate!
always wanted to compare with themselves.
why?
the answer is because they loves you,
and they always wanted the one who is going to be your soulmate later will always takes a good care of you better than themselves.
The father will always worried about his daughter's love and the mother will always thinks about her son's wife!!
so, when you feel that your parents is controlling you, let it be...they just wanted to ease themselves because there are too worry and nervous about their children's mate! :)
and of course because they love you much!
me love you mak abah! :)

Thank you

They said, "behind every successful man, there is a woman". I am glad that I am being one of them! :)

please go and back in one piece and safe and of course.....don't forget your heart! 

Perempuan berdandan

Yesterday, listened to a talk about " Hubungan Dalam Keluarga" by Ustaz Zulkifli Ismail from jab. Islam Perak..accidentally terdengar. 
Ustaz Ismail said: Isteri-isteri kalau nak berdandan, make-up boleh..tapi tanya suami make-up macam mana dia nak tgk, dia suka. Kalau dia tak suka jangan pakai."

huhuh..........so lps kahwen nak bersiap, berdandan kena tanya suami erhm so sementara masih blm kahwen ni buleh lah berdandan, bersiap sendiri punya citarasa kan? wee! tak ke seronok tu? I mean sblm kahwin la. Freedom sikit tapi lps kahwin, bukan dikongkong tapi hak untuk menasihati ttg penampilan seorang perempuan itu diberi kepada lelaki, adil lah kan sbb they are the one yg akan tanggung dosa2 kita. Ya Allah agamaMu sgt relevan.
Tapi nak berdandan ikut citarasa sendiri pon kn fikir jugak, dosa seorang perempuan sebelum kahwin ditanggung oleh ayahnya jadi, apa2 pon yg awak nak pakai, fikirlah awak sayang ayah awak ke tak? kalau sayang tutup aurat. bukankah selangkah keluarnya anak perempuan itu dari rumah dengan menampakkan auratnya maka selangkah langkah ayahnya ke neraka. MasyaAllah...Sorry abah! :"(

Sensitivity during Ramadhan

Just a random thoughts..
I saw these by myself twice..

Case A: A guy and his son asked for 2 cups of RM1 drinks. During ramadhan most vendors sell drinks costed RM2 in a plastic wrap nicely and when you asked for RM1 drinks, you're gonna have them in plastic cups. What surprised me is this lady, the vendor insert straws in that cups and then served them to this guy. I saw that this guy is stunned with that action and tak kan nk wat scene kot so terima je lah.

Case B: My friend bought coconut shake from the bazaar and this lady served her that shake in cup with straws in it. Straw yg bsr mcm minum cool blog tu aiyooo...

 My concerns are :
1- you are in fasting month plus at Bazaar Ramadhan, this guy is a Muslim, obviously lah he is fasting and though he is not, he still couldn't drinks at public, he'll be fined for that. Yet you served him with drinks in a cup with straws in it. Can you imagined what public will say or think if they saw him carrying it around? Dah lah plastic tak bagi, lucky he asked for that if not? Kesian dia tak pasal2 dpt malu.

2- It is 6.00pm ++ about an hour or so before Ifthar, yet you served the customers with drinks in cups with straws in it, don't you realised or even sensitive about the hygiene of it? All dust, bacteria coming in, Bazaar Ramadhan ramai orang, if one people spread at least one bacteria, and imagine at one time there are 20 to 30 people there, 30 bacteria spread all the way! And that drinks you sold are not properly covered because you've inserted straws in it. so?  Pfft!



Dear vendors, I am not trying to ruin your business but please be sensitive with all this hygienic issues and Ramadhan issues during this fasting month. Can you please asingkan straws and that cup, it's ok if you want to served them in cups but please gives separate straws together in a plastic bag. :)
Cari rezeki bukan saja halal, malah bersih juga ( halalan toyyiba) supaya orang tak sumpah seranah business kita, barulah elok, berkat rahmat rezeki Ramadhan. Barulah ramai org dtg beli :)

silent

when u no nothing
just don't say a things

If.........

If I am a mother, I won't advise my kid to go for tertiary studies, it's hard u know!

If I knew that degree is these hard, I rather screwed up my SPM and go to work.

If I knew that being bonded student is damn stress, I won't study hard to maintain my pointer. 

But,

If I don't urge my kids to go for tertiary studies, they gonna cursed me till their death for every miserable moments they went through.

If I screwed my SPM, I will cursed myself and people around me for every sufferings I have.

If I don't study hard to maintain my pointer, I won't get what I have now!

Be grateful for what I am now, aim high for the what I will be in the future and take lessons from the past :)

Kuatnya seorang wanita

Pertemuan dengan keluarga arwah Affiffi Emara- mak,ayah n adik perempuan.

Sungguh aku kagum betul dengan mak arwah. 

Tabah n kuat..hilang seorang anak lelaki sulong, tunjang keluarga kot...

ibu mana yang tak sedih,

hati ibu mana yang tak luruh anak yg diharapkan menjaganya pergi dulu dari dirinya.

Tapi bak kata ayah arwah.. "Arwah dipinjamkan Allah untuk kita, bila sampai masanya kita harus pulangkan dia pada penciptaNya."

Sungguh...aku kagum dengan mak, ayah, and adek perempuan arwah. 

Adek arwah looks like his brother. sgt alike. bila dia senyum, sebijik macam arwah.

Dari cara maknya bercerita, memang boleh tahu arwah anak yg baik. 

Alhamdulillah lepas bersembang dengan mak arwah hati lagi tenang, and aku memang kagum betul dgn kekuatan mak nya dan adek arwah.

Mak arwah pesan supaya kitorang teruskan projek ni, katanya ilmu yang bermanfaat itu bekalan untuk arwah di akhirat. 

InsyaAllah mak cik. :)  

Baju Kuning- Adik Arwah, Baju maroon- Mak arwah, belakang syafiza - ayah arwah

Maaf anda semua

Maaf
aku mungkin buat kamu sakit hati
aku mungkin buat kamu kecil hati
aku mungkin buat kamu jauh hati
Maaf
selagi aku mampu bernafas dalam dunia ni
aku minta maaf
sebab aku hambanya
tidak sempurna malah aku tak dapat buat sesuatu yg sempurna
 maaf

I hate writing a diary for that it made me feel weak.

Blood Donation

Despite of all chaotic happened in my life this few days, today turned out to be one of the historical day in my life.

Hey people I am now officially one of the 2% Malaysians who donates blood! Yupp! I donated my blood today for the first time! at last....*phew

I am scared u know! when Zana, Ika and Sera suggested me to donate my blood! eh, common la! few things runs into my mind.

> what if they discovered that I am positive wif something diseases after they've tested my blood? oooemmjayy! (ini sgtlah drama and they laughed out loud and said I am too much of dramas!)

>what if they can't find my vein? byk kali dicucuk untuk menderma???

whoaww ok, this is my first time kena cucuk utk diambil darah! again they said it is ok my dear! naah

> sakit tak cucuk? *pheww grrr '~'

>I got test this friday, have to study this evening, if I donate blood later I'll be in pain n letih 

and they claimed me to be 'mengada2'

After all my brilliant justifications being rejected............so I went to the blood donation campaign with sad, worried faces *muka gelabah

The nurses are very friendly and I was very confident that my weight is not enough for the donation.

The minimum weight should be 45kg and I am confident that I am 44kg! (according to Farhana Musa'a weight scale) and after I've checked my weight there!!!whoaa 47kg????????? bila naik ni!!! :"(   and me started to bising bila naik berat ni yadayada...

So, as my weight is suitable for the donation, we proceed to medical checkup, the medical officer took my blood pressure, again my blood pressure is suitable for checkup *muka sebal  while proceed to the blood checkup. Another medical officer used a small needle and poke the tip of my left middle finger. And me being me, pretend that I am enjoying it, *reverse psychology here

It turned out me the only one who fit for the donation *damn! grrr , Zana and Ika have not enough hemoglobin to donate, the minimum hemoglobin should be 12.5 and mine is 12.9 *grr!  Yusera is not enough sleeps. You should have 4 1/2 hours to 5 hours sleeps at least to be eligible for the donation.

so, as I am the 'lucky' one, and I have no choices as I am doing the blood donation system and my sv asked us to donate blood (attendance is take uolls!) so I am going! grrr... Lay myself on the bed and the nurse do all the necessary things she needed to do, cucuk sana sini and x saket owh!!! it took only 15min??? in order for them to suck my blood out! heww and weh!and scariest part when the nurse said! 

"wow, the blood flows so fast, good, you are the potential regular donor! " 

owh whattt?? come again? POTENTIAL BLOOD DONOR???? you want to suck my blood again arh? 

turning me into vampire or what??whoaw.... mak x sanggup dah ok!

Looking at my blood in that bag! whoah scary! It's look like I am halfway killing myself by sucking my blood out! :"(  *lol dramatic

ok next! the best part is I got souvenirs!! *insert Ika, Sera, Zana smirk faces here

ahhaahaha... they only got KPJ's magazine

but me? I got Milo, Munchy's biscuit, and KPJ's bag full wif healthcare product... thanx KPJ! *harus highlight sbb later we're going to do project wif them! insyaAllah.

I got this medicines, they said it's for increasing your iodine in the blood or something?? should I consume that or not? help me pls.... I am the first timer... :)

Sahabat- Affiffi Emara Abdullah

Pagi ahad, aku dikejutkan dgn 2 panggilan telefon, satu dari Afif (sahabat arwah) jam 3.40pg dan satu lagi dari Fathiah 5.40 pg. Aku angkat panggilan Fathiah.
Fathiah : Nad, Emara dah tak ada. (sambil menangis)
Nad : Hmm?? (masih lagi mamai)
Fathiah: Emara dah tak ada, dia meninggal accident.
Nad: Innalillahiwainnailaihirajiun.Kat mana accident?
Fathiah : Jln Cameron Highland.
panggilan ditamatkan tapi aku masih lagi separa sedar, dan bila membaca mesej dari Anis, baru aku tersedar hakikat sebenar dan menangis mengenangkan perbualan aku dengan arwah Khamis minggu lepas. Kami sepatutnya jumpa Ahad malam untuk berbincang psl details projek, kami dlm satu group untuk TTP.

Honestly aku cakap, aku seakan lumpuh sekejap, rasa mcm hilang arah, arwah satu group dgn aku, dia sgt baik, kitorg 3 perempuan 1 lelaki, arwah boleh dikatakan tulang belakang kumpulan ni, yg selalu tenagkan kitorg bila kitorg gelabah, selalu memperingati kalau kitorang terlupa, nama group Athena tu idea arwah, idea Blood Donations tu bersama2 dgn arwah...semasa dpt berita tu aku dekat rumah, dan sepanjang aku ada dekat rumah n perjalanan ke UTP aku berfikir apa yang aku kena buat? sampai skrg aku masih lagi berfikir apa yg seharusnya aku buat? Selalunya kitorg akan duduk bincang ramai2 dan he will comes up wif a good suggestions.
Aku kenal arwah dari foundation sampailah sekarang final year, and aku tak pernah nampak arwah marah, kalau bengang ke apa, dia akan selalu diam atau kerut dahi dan kemudian senyum or gelak, arwah memang org yg soft-hearted, selalu ja senyum, kalau ada org usik dia, kenakan dia, arwah akan gelak2 je, tak adanya nak bls balik aku paling ingt, pernah sekali lepak dgn dia and the rest of the team BH dkt Ameeth, arwah order telur separuh masak n dia x kan makan selagi Hazim tak bukakan untuk dia. Comelje rasa masa tu. Arwah memang suka buat org happy, kalau pon bkn slh dia kdg2 dia akan minta maaf juga. Rasa mcm baru smlm ja g melawat dia dkt hospital ms dia operation appendix tu which is 3 years back. Banyak sgt kenangan dgn arwah yg sampai skrg kalau aku bc je cerita psl accident tu aku masih sebak.

Affiffi Emara Abdullah,
semoga roh kau tenang di sana, ditempatkan dikalangan orang2 beriman,
tiada lagi senyum, supports yg kau selalu bagi tapi kenangan dengan kau akan aku ingt selalu,
tak dapat lagi lepak seperti selalu,
kau mmg sahabat sejati,
insyaAllah kitorang akan buat yg terbaek utk TTP semoga pengorbanan dan perjuangan mu tak sia-sia sahabat.
hanya doa yg dapat aku bagi untuk bekalan kau disana, semoga sampai syurga,
semoga kita dapat berjumpa lagi dikehidupan sana.insyaAllah.

Study

double triple messy!

nope, this happens not because of STUDY mode but because of LAZY mode! grrr... I am so lazy right now, I just wanna eat, EAT, eat, EAT and eat! please! nak makan! and all of this because of this: 

Please ignore that 'nice' handwriting uhu.....

It's a TEST mode here in UTP people, starting from last week. heh PF (Personal Finance) was successfully done, last week, when I say SUCCESSFULLY done it means -'menembak jawapan dgn jayanya!'- huhu n MS (Malaysian Studies) well, let's wait till tomorrow night at 8pm.. we'll see how good am I in 'shooting' the answers! :)  

And now I am struggling to revise all of this..........grr! otak dah lembab sejak nak dkt2 cukup umur mengundi! huhuhu.......ok pray for the best people... 

happy study :)

Happy Father's Day

Dear Mr,Jamal Abd Nasir,
u know i am not good in words especially when I am with u (bkn nervous, bkn juga kelu tapi kalah berkata2).
And we did have so much bad and good memories together, and I am blessed to have u as my hero, the leader of the family, mak's best frenemy and also the motivator.
Thank you for being there when I am lost, light up my life with your words and shining up my life.
I love u, and thank you. Akak minta halal makan minum, and ampunkan salah silap :)

En.Jamal Abd Nasir

KeampunanNya

Petikan dari emel seorang sahabat,

"Katakanlah: "Wahai hamba-hambaKu yang telah melampaui batas terhadap diri mereka sendiri (dengan perbuatan-perbuatan maksiat), janganlah kamu berputus asa dari rahmat Allah, kerana sesungguhnya Allah mengampunkan segala dosa; sesungguhnya Dialah jua Yang Maha Pengampun, lagi Maha Mengasihani. " 

(Az-Zumar :53)

"Allah tak pernah jauh Nadia, DIA sentiasa tunggu kita 24/7, cuma kita yang jarang call DIA. Kita jarang message Allah, bagitahu hati kita, macam mana Allah nak tolong kita, sedangkan Allah boleh bagi macam tu saja, tapi kita kena minta betul-betul, yakin dengan Allah insyaAllah cinta Allah selalu terbuka untuk kita."

"Wahai Yang Membolak-balikkan jantung hati (Allah)! Tetapkan daku atas agamaMu (Riwayat Al-Tirmizi)

Aku mahu syurga

Kata-kata dari seseorang dan buat aku terfikir, Ya Allah banyak dosa aku padaMu, n honestly, buat aku menangis almost saban hari. Puas aku kesana kesini mencari ketenangan hati, aku cuba berdoa pada Nya, mungkinkah Allah terima taubat aku?
Kata seorang sahabat, mungkin Allah jentikkan hati seseorang untuk menegur kita demi merubah kita kepada kebaikan, Alhamdulillah.
Ada sahabat yang mempertikai, bagi pendapat dan sebagainya, sungguh aku rasa berdosa dan malu.
Hanya seorang yang buat aku tenang, mak. Mak yg banyak bagi semangat,kalau mak ada sebelah ni nak je peluk2, thanx mak! :)
Aku mungkin tak sebaik mana tapi bila ada peluang untuk jadi baik insyaAllah aku mahu, aku yakin yang lain2 juga begitu, semua mahu syurga, aku pun nak syurga, kata ustazah, kata mak, kata abah syurga itu indah dan terbaca seorang kawan yg paling baik bercerita psl syurga dekat blog dia,
Ya Allah kalau kawan aku yg lebih baik itu pun merasakan syurga jauh darinya, habis aku ni? Ya Allah jadikan aku obses pd syurgaMu, Amin.

Ya Allah, jadikan aku obses pada syurga Mu, Amin.

Nikmat Kasih Sayang

Kadang kita terlupa ada orang yg sayang pd kita lebih dari kita sayang dia malah banyak kekecewaan yang kita beri pada dia.contohnya kasih sayang seorang ibu pada anaknya.
Kadang2 kita terlalu mengejar pada sayang yg memang tak pasti benar, dan tak pasti lagi sejati hingga kita kecewa dan merana tanpa kita sedari ada Dia yang selalu sayang pada kita seperti mengejar cinta manusia tapi lupa cinta Allah.
Cinta di tu hakiki tapi kita selalu lupa dan kita sibuk kejar dunia dari kejar redha Dia.
Syukurlah atas nikmat kasih sayang yang Dia beri.
Amin

Azzahidin (Batang Padang) Festival Nasyid Negeri Perak 2012

Azzahidin is a nsyid group of SMKA Slim River.
Ni semua adik2 saya yg BHMOCIV thn lepas lah :)
I saw familiar faces but I can't recall their names except Nazirul ( my brother in Group Sutun)
I am sorry boys.
Ini atas permintaan Nazirul, he sent me this link at my FB and I've listened to it few times.
Amazed dgn the kompang, rebana skills diorg tu. sgt menarik, interesting, tertarik da bomb n I don't know why they didn't get the first place.
Apa2 pon, the songs sgt menarik, my rumet thought that I listened to dikir barat plak hhuhuh...lol
btw, double, triple thumbs up, u did gud job guys, n I wished u all the best in your future.
sesiapa yg mmbaca post ni silalah klik link ni n hayati lagu tu then klik like, pd video ni kalau suka ya.( pesanan penaja) hehehhe :)

apa2 pon Good luck SMKSA Slim River, korang hebat boleh wakil daerah, akak dulu wakil kelas pon x lepas... ( xda talent.... )
jadikan segala kegagalan itu satu pemangkin kepada kejayaan, I know what it feels like to lost, but never give up, keep trying and work harder than u'll have that sweetness of winning as well as the worthiness of the hard work :)

The birthday

tomorrow is this boy birthday:

(please ignore that ring..Idk mana dtg nya)

 to my younger brotha Muhamad Nafiz bin Jamal Abd Nasir,

the one yg sgt2 manja,

yg sgt penyanyang esp to his fav pet : chi (the chicken), oly and holly (the rabbit),

yg sgt2 pjg akal dlm menghabiskan duit kakaknya dan memenatkan kakaknya dgn teman dia p sana sini.   

but I still love you brotha! 

n iwished u happy 9th birthday, sila jaga mak abah, chi, olly n holly baek2 

our family potrait w/o abah n abang

the three generation :- abah, nafiz n tok wan

ops..this is abah's new fav. my cousin's son. cucu abah k.. dia sgt mesra dgn abah sorang sj.. why lutifil hadi?
ok, that's all miss u younger bro! :)

                               

-Absence makes a heart grows fonder-

PETRONAS/Universiti PETRONAS/ UTP?

#Currently listening to Liyana Jasmay - Cinta Bersatu 

Dulu bila balik kampung (KEDAH) to be exact kampung sebelah abah (Kodiang),

Sedara mara akan tanya:

1- Kakak tingkatan berapa? (huhu muda kan?orang ingat bdk skolah lg)

     -Tak sekolah dah, masuk u.

2- Owh, u mana?

    -UTP.

3-Apa tu?

   - Universiti Teknologi PETRONAS

4- Kat KL tu ka?

    - dak, Perak.

and then, antara respons yg ku dpt:

1- Owh nanti kerja terus dgn PETRONAS la, bguih la.

2- *senyum

3-Owh anak sdara mengaji dkt Universiti Malaya dekat KL nun!KL nun! *sblm tu mak cik tu bg pndangan pelik dan lekeh pd aku, dgn bangganya kata anak sdara dia ngaji UM (err apa kaitan UM dgn UTP?)

4-universiti PETRONAS amek apa? 

and..bla bla bla...

Well, mcm2 respons dpt..x kesah la..janji aku pass dgn flying colours dkt sini. Orang berdoa pada anda setiap hari, sama ada untuk perkara baik atau buruk, secara baik atau sinis, x kisah lah..hanya amin kan dan senyum. Apa yg tak baik jd kan pengajaran dan dorongan untuk lebih berjaya, apa yg baik teruskan lagi dan sentiasa berfikiran positif saja.
sebab ak rasa byk sgt org x taw apa itu UTP , aku lebih suka sbut "mengaji dgn PETRONAS" bila org tnya mngaji mn.

And as for me? aku lebih suka ikut flow, kerja dgn PETRONAS atau x, terus kerja atau smbung study? kita akan tahu nanti.

Being me, aku lebih suka merancang secara angin lalu, tapi tak letak harapan tinggi, hanya tunggu dan usaha untuk masa kini, usaha kuat bila masanya tiba..dan terima segalanya dengan redha. Hidup ini sementara kenapa nk complicated-kannya? 

I just want to enjoy every single things and minutes in my life, jatuh bangun itu manis, kadang2 mengeluh, so what? macam kau sorang sj dlm dunia ni yg ada masalah. relaks! tu ja yg aku nak.

That's why kadang2 aku cuba lari /escaped dr org2 yg suka menambhkan mslh pd aku esp kalau bnda tu buatkan aku tertekan. Aku mmg suka lari pon. Serious! ok talk much bye

Paku buah keras

Kadang-kadang kita merungut, kita mengutuk, kita membebel, kita mengeji, mmg sdp! mmg best! mmg x sdr diri ms buat mua tu, sampai tak terfikir setiap yg kita keji itu, setiap yg kita umpat itu setiap yg kita kutuk itu, setiap yg kita bebel tu mungkin kita sendiri yang buat nanti.

Well, that's what it call- LIFE~

Fulls of unexpected things.

Mungkin pada masa itu, kita kata tak mungkin ini terjadi pada aku sebab aku memang buka jenis orang yang sebegitu tetapi bila yang sebenar-benarnya terjadi?tanpa kita sedari? kena batang hidung sendiri? padan muka.

kalau pada masa itu orang yang kita kutuk, keji, umpat, bebel itu pulangkan paku buah keras? kutuk kita, umpat kita, bebel pada kita, keji kita balik, tidakkah malu?

uish...barulah masa tu terkial-kial nk mencari alasan.

Memang banyak terjadi dalam kehidupan. Even pernah terjadi pada diri sendiri, sbb kdg2 bila kita marah mmg terluah sebegitu, dan kadang2 kita brcakap tanpa berfikir dengan rasional sebab dan akibat. Memang ada yang mempunyai kefahaman sebegini tapi sejauh mana orang nak faham? tak kan setiap kali anda buat kesilapan yang sama orang nak faham? sebanyak mana sangat yang faham? kalau yang jenis memang dah menahan marah tunggu nak fire ja, ada dia nak faham?

fikirlah.

Internship -Job offered

Sedang busy buat slides last sunday,

My boss asked me;

"Nadia, u nak tak jadi asst.system analyst?"

"Saya byr tinggi so saya tak nak ada masalah."

"Kalu awak nak, cepat2 lah habiskan degree!"

weehuu dlm hati best tp cpt2 hbeskan degree???

errr tu yg ku ragu2

Internship

i got back home last night at 1.30am! 

Being in the office fo 14hours without foods and drinks except the 11.00am nasi lemak yesterday's morning.

so hungry, pedih ulu hati and etc.

I got a message at 10.30am asking to come to the office to finish the editing part of our slides. (the company have presentations this evening with MOSTI-Ministry of Science , Innovation & Technology regarding our new develop project. 

And please don't asked me why you get home at 1.30am, I can't answer it either. It's just 'suddenly u realised it is 6.00pm already, and then ' suddenly u realised it is 10pm ' already. Well, i don't know is it me the one yg workaholic, sgt pay attention till I didn't notice my surrounding is getting dark and only the three of us remains? IDK.

n well, thank God! balik tu..my bike was the nice bike ever, x buat perangai n we got home..safely though (I langgar lampu merah!) huhu..

hell yeah! pkul 1.30pg sorg2 bw motor dekat jn yg lenggang n traffic light yg there's no other people except u, I think that is a good excuse for me to ignore the Red Light.! 

n then, betapa lenggang nya jalan, rasa mcm bw moto dlm cter maria-mariana pulak heheh.. memecut gaya cm ko bw harley je Nad! hheheh... Yes, I don't care at all, nak kt minah rempit ke, bw  x berhemah ke I don't care! what's in my mind at that time is... "Go home and sleep!' ...but as usual..that is not had happened..

Yes i did go home straightly, tapi masuk motor dlm rumah gaya cm pencuri ja, diam2 tkut nnt jiran2 terjaga n saw OMG this gurl br balik dah pkul 1.30 ni? n paling penting takut my housemate terjaga (isn't I'm a kind girl?) 

but, still, Fiza terjaga n open the door for me. wee Thanks friend.

n btw, perut sgt lapar n pedih, no food left in the house except instant milo, mushroom soup and maggi! mmg x lah nk msk mlm2 kan? so just grabbed a slice of -2days expired bread and ate!.

mmg terdesak n terus tdur after that. Yes, x mandi, masih lg lapar, n I don't care sy sgt2 lah letih n till u experience t, then u'll know how tired I am. 

Masih x story pada mak! nope! later lah/...nnt she will 'bebel' n risau, calling all the time, so I just shut up and later we talk arh mak? hehe ( anak yg degil)

n this few weeks I sense that I am changing a little? huaa n I don't know why. It's just the environment. 

~grow old and grey with u!~

isn't it sweet! #mood gatal sikit :P

Maafkan aku~

mungkin ada perkara masa lalu yang membuahkan salah faham,
akhirnya melarat sampai memudaratkan diri sendiri,
maafkan aku...kalau aku bersalah,
maafkan aku...kalau aku ada hutang apa-apa, silalah pm, insyaAllah kita selesaikan cara baik.
aku tak mahu kerana perkara kecil2 hidup tak aman.
maafkan aku.

Solat

Ustaz cakap, solat itu tiang agama,
masa pergi tengok akad nikah my cousin pon,
imam tu ckp
tunjang utama perkahwinan ialah solat.

makna betapa pentingnya solat itu.
tanpa solat runtuhlah tiang agama kita, jadi apa yang ada kalau sudah tiangnya runtuh?
macam rumah tiada tiang? robohlah.

perkahwinan pula tanpa solat? porak poranda kata imam tu.
kata nak bersama smpai syurga, kalau x solat agama dah runtuh mcm mana nak masuk syurga.
pesan imam tu dekat pengantin lelaki, rajin2 lah solat, jadilah mcm ayah mentua anda yg rajin solat. (ayah mentua= pak ngah )

bak petikan hilal Asyraf :
kalau kita sayang orang tu, kita tak nak dia masuk neraka,
kita pon x nak masuk neraka, kita tak nak dia masuk neraka sebab kita,
kita pon tak nak kita masuk neraka sebab dia.

semoga sampai syurga. Amin

Not feeling Well

I am not feeling well,

Well, I may look likes ok,smiling happily, but I know myself well.

Got headache since yesterday evening.

I think maybe this is because the weather is too hot. Don't u think so?

Took a nap to reduce it, unfortunately, It didn't help.

So, I though I just need to go out, saw the trees, people and enjoy the breeze.

Again, It didn't help at all.

so i think, we need to drink something sour! rasa loya a bit.

Still it didn't help. It became more and more pain.

But at 9pm, Amir appears on TV (the character in vanilla coklat tv3)

He is so sweet, and it melted me until I didn't realize that I have so much pain in the head. hee

Tapi, when Fiza became super excited and hit my stomach with her pillow, daanng! nak muntah!

running to the toilet, mmg nak termuntah gila.

I knew that my body is actually alerts me to eat something, my stomach is crying out loud for food to process!

but hey, my tongue can't receive any.

So, after Vanilla Coklat ended at 10, straightly go to sleep.

When I woke up this morning, the pain is still there, the stomach is crying for food, siap bunyi2

I know I need to have something to eat, but still my tongue still didn't want to cooperate.

so what to do? had milo this morning and dah smpai office, rush to minimart, grab a bun, still eating the bun, slowly sbb lidah masih x lalu terima makanan. 

And here it goes, the headache is coming again!.

Paksa juga mkn if not, nanti akan shivering giler, until I can't stand on my feet. This is a long journey and day, so i need to be prepared.

Counting Time

Counting...
esok balik kampung!
hoyeah!
and now...busy, listing few things in minds.
What to do,
When , and how! weee..
X sabar ok.
This time, my other cousin's punya wedding:

• paling x sbr, n tgk who's the future hubby! <---seriuosly, I never had a chance of meting him, stalk dlm FB pon x jmpe! *hebat betul rahsia
• next thing, I don't have new baju kurung utk wedding tu..since mom is not well so ckp kat mak, tak perlulah baju baru, Just wear what's there for me... FYI, mak ckp I got lots of baju so no worries.
• next thing, nak memasak! heee this time around, mmg x mnta nk mkn apa2 dgn mak since she is not well kan..(still selsema) so, balik ni kita msk sndri ye.
• I think, my aunty (mak ngah) will cook bihun sup kot nanti? hehehe ni yg x sbr nak serang dapur
• last, of course! nak makan lauk kenduri...mak said this is going to be quiet a big occasion juga.. well, we'll see...yg penting lauk kenduri..n of course la sapa yg akan ada di dapur utk serve lauk pengantin? hah muka ni jugak kot kali ni..maybe..(kalu dicalonkan lagi lah heee)...but one thing for sure.. I won't have enough rest but I'll have more than enough food

lalalalal..borring

Internship: The Greatest Insultation.

Sungguh rasa terhina hari ni.Sumpah!
stereotype gile client yg sorg ni.
But glad boss ada back-up, bg motivation.
Actually, hari ni bos masuk lmbat so dia minta aku g company tu tlg tkr battery since one client ni asyik bising kata diorang nye gas detector rosak.
So, nak dijadika cerita,
dah sampai setengah jln, hujan lebat, so x dpt g...
bila call client, dia ckp nak hari ni jugak,
diorang ttp kilang pkul 6.30pm ok fine! p jugak2!
dah smpai..sessat! x jmpa..kol n dia ckp ok tggu...sy p amek
TETAPI! tunggu punya tunggu akhirnya lps setengah jam membebel sorang2 dia dtg.
tp..what a surprise..know what he said?
"Awak datang esoklah, baik awak balik. Kita pon dah tutup."
grrr! Aku smpai sblm pkul 6.30 td hang tak bg pon directions nak p sn! derrr!
sblm itu..dlm fon.. dia tanya,
'"Awak betul ke boleh buat?"
lps tu bila dah jumpa pulak..
"Awak betul ke boleh buat?"
dia tanya lagi.....
"Awak student ea?"
dan lagi..
"Awak betul boleh buat?"
piss off! Tgk la nanti, baru kau tahu boleh ke tak buat..
Kalu aku x boleh buat pon, x boleh ke kau bg peluang? Hello1 stereotype gile ko mentang2 dgr suara perempuan! grr!
Esok aku nak g balik, n mlm ni aku praktis buka segala screw kat umah ni..
screw dekat pintu, screw dekat socket, semua aku buka n pasang balik..
semata-mata sebab terasa tercabar yg amat.
aku update bos psl tadi n smlm...dia ckp sabar.
Encik tu mmg mcm tu..byk mslh..hui...ntah la..
serius sedeyh skrg

Debaran

First tyme berdebar gile nk ucap birthday kat orang
nak amek spm pon x berdebar cm ni <---ni tipu sikit
n...aku pon x penah amek ms yg lm untuk tulis wish fo someone's birthday.
dr bgun awl pagi smpai dah g office akhirnya terluah jugak
terluah jugak wish itu di fb tuan empunya nya...
and derrr ingt ok..rupanya kena perli balik........ 
ngeee segan den!

Alhamdulillah

Hidup ini bukan setakat nak enjoy and grab all the chances,
Hidup ini untuk mengenal dan menghargai serta mensyukuri nikmat yang Allah kurniakan.
Betapa selama 20 thn hidup ini aku disayangi, aku menyanyangi dan tak lupa juga mneyakiti pon ada,
terima kasih dan maafkan aku kalau ada yang terasa hati.
Setiap hari, setiap saat itu adalah detik untuk mengenal diri dan mempelajari serta memperbetulkan segala kekhilafan.
Begitu juga setiap detik yang berlalu itu ialah masa untuk menginsafi serta mensyukuri.
Antara sedar atau tidak, setiap hari setiap saat kita menjadi semakin matang,
Antara sedar atau tidak, setiap hari setiap saat yang berlalu itu ialah ujian serta nikmat untuk kita.
Semoga detik ini lebih baik dari sebelumnya.

Roxette - Listen To Your Heart

#love her 90's style esp the hair! :P

Job

#Listen to your heart ~Roxette

Hailoh baca post2 kwn... diorg ade yg bos tawar keje, aiseyh best!

As for me myself? huhu...I dunno..

Tp once my bos said, kalau berjaya projek ni n kitorg jd GLC jgn lupa antar resume.

Ok, I'll take it as a good sign.! :P

Hailoh...projek pon x siap lagi nak cari keje, x malu!

pikir la yg mana penting dulu k.. :P

kesusahan

sangat susah bila tak ada fon.

salah sendiri, yg tggalkan charger dekat office, skrg balik umah, x leh nak caj fon

x leh nak update mak yg anaknya telah tiba dgn selamat

tak leh nak msg org ms dlm bus td

mmg sgt buhsan, tdur je kejenya. 

serious..hate this feeling!

buat org risau..mmg x suka

minta maaf smua..ini kesalahan n kecuaian sendiri

The parents

"Seorang ibu boleh menjaga 10 orang anak tapi belum tentu 10 org anak boleh menjaga seorang ibu"

Guess most of us heard this saying a lot kan?

Let's just think...

"adakah sama : 

1-menghantar ibu bapa anda ke rumah orang-orang tua utk dijaga secara percuma saja 

dgn

2- menghantar ibu bapa anda ke pusat jagaan yg menelan kos beribu-ribu ringgit.

As for me, both sama saja!escapism!

melepaskan diri dr tanggungjawab sbg seorang anak. Tak kiralah hantar ke rumah orang2 tua ke special care centre ke, whatever it is u're still abandon ur parents though with/without u're realising it.

Tapi ya lah, someone yg biat mcm ni, mesti ada reasons yg tersendiri n siapalah saya untuk judge tapi ini adalah pendapat sendiri, in the future, me myself also didn't know what will happened. akankah aku juga begini atau adakah aku yg dpt nasib sebegini? I never knows, it's just pray to Allah, semoga aku tetap dapat berbakti pada abah n mak sampai ke akhir hayat mereka, dan sampai ke akhir hayat aku.

I believe in KARMA, what's goes around comes around, begitu, aku juga berharap semoga nasib aku tdk begini, aku akan dijaga n didoakan oleh bakal anak2 ku yg soleh/solehah.

aku juga harap tak ada orang2 tua yg akan terbiar, duduk sorg2 , last skali dihtr ke pusat jagaan orang2 tua, menangis slalu..I saw that n it was so sad ok!

sebenarnya entry ini terlahir sekadar ats pemerhatian aku ttg masyarakat sekeliling n dunia hari ini.

sekian

Fake smile.

#Listening to DBSK- Forever Love

orang dah lama lyn DBSK...aku baru nak lyn...so what? hehehe

Dear fellows, 

Interns is terrible,sucks, hard and it's like living in hell kan?

betul x? right! jgn nak menipu lah tak! :P

Ok, kalau betul x.. I am sorry..that's what I feel n I saw few of my friends do have that symptoms..

Symptoms penyakit rindu UTP dan juga penyakit menyesal intern.

my intern would be great kalau tak ade project intern! Yeah It is!

My intern would be great if I just did what the executives do! 

Meeting, ngadap laptop, instruct sana, instruct sini, outstation lagi, travel sn, travel sini, cukup tahun, cuti.. habiskan cuti yg tertunggak, n lepas tu cukup bulan dapat gaji, belanja sana belanja sini makan sana makan sini.

Hoi seronok!

Tapi ended up? u did tasks yg bdak lepasan SPM pon blh buat (bak kata one of my housemate la)

Tapi my aunty ckp..

"itulah namanya pelajaran, kalau diorang tak swoh ko buat ko x taw! hah skrg kalau intern dtg, swoh je diorg buat keje scan, potostat, tulis borang semua. Biar je, biar diorang belajar, nanti kau dah keje ko bulilah balik budak2 intern ms tu."

sempoi mak cik aku...mnyuruh aku buli org... *tabik kot!

Tapi..bila kita dah rasa mcm ni... sanggup ke nak buli org nnt... eh, ko ingt ko bsr sgt ke nk buli2 org? hahahha....eh, aku dulu dah pernah kena buli..ni bukan buli namanya, ni membentu kau untuk belajar (positive)

ya.. tukarkan semua menjadi positif.. bila kamu bangun pagi dan terasa malas benar nak g keje hari ni.. tension.. positifkan minda...sampai2 nnt mesti akan satu lif dgn abag handsome, mesti bos x dtg office (outstation), mesti dpt gaji (tgh bulan mmg x berjaya), mesti ada org blnja hari ni... bla bla bla.. apa2 lah lagi yg buatkan korang happy.. so that u can have a fake smile when u wake up..so nnt xde lah rs tension nk dtg office..ni tak..habis 7 month of internship..muka pon semakin tua sbb hari2 selama 28 minggu anda asyik monyok sj... yes, I am being happy despite all of troubles I get, the anger of my boss to me..the anger of others to me.. so what? lantaklah korang nak mrh...ak bukan lama pon kat sini.. I knwo i did my job well n I am satisfied with it..lu nak bising kalau bnda tu xde kaitan dgn gua..lu punya psl.. I will always shows u my 'muka selenge' /'muka dunno'/ 'muka selamba' hahahaha...dat what been taught by Kamarul Asraf..kwn saya.

N even my SV pon dok gelak2 bila aku buat muka mcm tu..dia kata elok lah awak amik PR! 

err I take it as a compliment.

Ok....hujan x berhenti..haruskah aku redah sj? we'll wait n see :)

see ya again... :)

Saya Selfish

I might sounds selfish when I said this. But this happens to most of us, I think... if it is not, feel free to oppose.


Aku percaya pada janji Allah :
“Perempuan yang jahat untuk lelaki yang jahat dan lelaki yang jahat untuk perempuan yang jahat, perempuan yang baik untuk lelaki yang baik dan lelaki yang baik untuk perempuan yang baik.” (an-Nur':26)


Tapi sebagai hamba yang juga manusia

   Aku mahu yang baik tapi aku tak berusaha untuk menjadi baik.

   Aku mahu yang boleh menjadi imam pada aku seorang muslimah tapi aku? pernah tak berusaha untuk menjadi imam yang baik even untuk diri sendiri?

   Aku mahu yang segak, bila tengok sekali saja cerah betul mata memandang tapi aku ni? sopan pon tak dak. isk2. 

   Aku tak mahu yang jahat sebab aku rasa aku x adalah jahat sgt

   Aku tak mahu yang tak sembahyang sebab aku rasa aku sembahyang juga walau bukan di awal waktu

   Aku tak mahu yang tak senonoh sgt, yang tak tutup aurat semua sebab aku rasa aku ni walau tak bertudung labuh, tak pakai handsock, tak berstokin tutup semua tapi masih lagi menutup aurat 

Owh selfish betul aku sebagai manusia dan hambanya. Kata percaya pada janji Allah tapi kenapa nak mempersoalkan satu perkara yang kata kononya percaya? 

Ada satu ceramah yang aku dengar, kata ustaz tu: 

  " kalau nak jodoh yang baik, cuba jadi dulu yang baik itu baru dapat jodoh yang baik. " (lebih kurang lah ayatnya)

Tapi sebagai manusia. memang nak yang baik saja kan. i don't put the blame on anybody. The one that should be blame is me. Tak pernah nak berubah. 

I might sounds sellfish. Sellfish sgt2. I am sorry. 

Again this entry bukan nak shoot sesiapa kecuali diri penulis sendiri. 

Susahnya Cari Duit

After about 2 months of being in working life, my aunts asked me
"Mcm mana kerja?"
I said , " Letihlah, balik pon lewat, penatlah!"
another aunty said, "Hah, baru hang taw teruknya cari duit!"
and I was stunt, smile and said , " hah..taw dah la ni..teruk,teruk!"
Life is worst, correct? But that worst things that teach us the meaning of life.
And that gives you sweet, funny memory after all so that you can blabbering/ talks/ tell the story of your hardwork to your younger generation in the future. (It's what happened currently)
Imagine if there's no challenges in your life, living like a baby since u infant until u old.
When you're a baby, the mother feed us, bath us, put us into sleep,carry u on their back n imagine if this happened over n over again, until the end of your life.
Will you get to know how to eat? will u know how to bath? Will you know how to walk? Think.
So, this what have happened to me yesterday.
I got a call from my bos who is now outstation in Sarawak at 4pm , he asked me to finish the quotation from a company yesterday. We thought that the deadline is a week after CNY but it is actually today. Ok, big mistakes. But it doesn't matter, I am okay with it. Normals!
But what makes me got angry, tension, fed-up is the specs for items they requested, is very general, made me a bit 'pecah kepala' to complete it (plus, I am not that familiar with all these safety items) - that is still okay.
It is actually the item they've requested is a lots of redundancy and make me hard to complete it. Let me tell ya, the person first requested a cap complete with ear muff mounted on it. ok, but when u go to the next page, u'll see they requested for helmet mounted ear muff... what's the need for you to have two helmet mounted ear muff when u only have one cap? u want to mount two ear muff on one cap ah? *pfft!
I told my boss, he said..it's a normal things for executives and engineers to do that. They wanted to play safe. Ya la! play safe with two mounted ear muff! I bit the person who prepared this RFQ sgt selamat ya!
Than my boss said, sometimes, they didn't want to refer to the technician or people who is below them who more well-known about this. They make it like' konon2 aku hebat dari diorang sbb aku bos' it's a shamed if boss didn't know about this simple thing. Yeah It's a shame! Very shame on u now! I am laughing at u.
I talked to my friend and she said, sometimes this is actually tricks they did to make their budget approved. In real, they didn't actually used the given budget as they've requested it is for other things! Nice, 'karenah birokrasi, merugikan company dan diri sendiri.'
Btw, this entry doesn't mean to attack anybody it's just to make u n me to think...there's no wrong in asking, people won't look down to somebody who is willing to learn, sometimes doesn't mean u're a boss, u doesn't need ur employee's opinion.Remember Nad, there's no wrong in tone down! Plus, u'll gain more respect out of it.

And next, yeah! it is hard to find money, but to 'throw' it away...it's just simple, by a blink of eye.
 Nad, amik pengajaran, since u've experienced it, so don't repeat it or else u'll be cursed like what u've done now. :)

:)....ok pen down! :)

2012

2012

Hoping for the best,

Belajar untuk lebih relaks,

Belajar untuk lebih menyayangi apa yg ada,

Belajar untuk lebih matang,

Belajar untuk menjadi lebih baik.

Belajar untuk lebih redha,
Belajar untuk lebih menerima takdirNya dari meminta dan mengeluh,
Belajar untuk lebih bersyukur dgn apa yg ada.

2011-Year End Trip..Short but fulls of fun n memories!

Dah seminggu masuk thn baru...baru nak update about my 2011 year end trip! mmg lembab..huhu

btw, The trip is just a short trip (about 2 days) n the destination? is just Lumut, Manjung...

Ya, x jauh mn pon...mls nak g jauh2 sbb I was alone coming from Ipoh. 

Please note, this is an adhoc trip! since I need to get away from the hustle bustle of Ipoh n get myself out of stress I faced a week before! Tension mengejar due date, keletihan dgn x tdur beberapa hari, hell yeah It is very tension! n bila cuti pon u still can see ur office from ur windows..lagi tension so I decided to 'run away' run away la sgt kan? sbnrnya? since da g Manjung kan..pay a visit to Liyana, my friend yg br recorver from appendix operation, had so much fun with the family.Celebrate her sis n father's birthday. mkn seafood since mngidam sgt2, lps main boling n last skali mnyelongkar kapal dgn org tu. Yeah, pergi dgn org kapal mmg la byk gile kitorg explore hehe.. ok la..enjoy gmbr je k :)

jeng jeng jeng.. 

the scores!wee dpt no 2 :P

melawat ikin...kat tmpt keje dia, bersembang smpai kitorg kn halau balik

 the birthday girl n birthday boy.

Yana's parent, very loving n generous! 

inilah muzium marin or KD Rahmat yg kitorg selongkar, actually bkn x penah msuk kapal tp dis tyme around xde org guide n x rmai org so mmg happy habis la slongkar! smpai dkt basement, store yg xde bnde pon msuk,...tgk tmpat keje 'org' tu

A big thanx to Yana's family, Fahmi, Ikin for the trip n for someone yg byk sgt mnolong n melayan kerenah yg pelbagai, nak mkn sea food la, nk beli bj I luv pangkor la, nak g Pangkor la, tgkp gmbr la,shopping lagi..mcm2 n yes this trip has lots of meaning to me! byk sgt! came back to Ipoh with smiles, memories, foods, n nervous! Takutlah! 

*harap yg terbaek. :)

Duhai elektrik

As most knows, I once update about the condition of our house in FB...

yah! our house isss soo chronic skrg!

serious! I don't know why! but hell yeah! ini lah pengalamannya duduk sendiri.

1- gas kat dapur dah habis n we don't know how to buy the gas, should we just buy it from the lorry gas yg dtg kat this neighborhood area every weekend?(mhl dowh!) or just go to the shop, pay and ask them to deliver to our house?but then, how to tell them the address? since we ourselves pon kdg2 keliru dgn rumah sndri...kat mn ye? *ok this one u can blame me.

2- heater kitorg rosak!(my heater!) it actually the plug tu msuk ke dlm switch n I guessed it burned inside since we can't pull it away, so it stuck there, for few months/weeks it can be used, but suddenly one day we realised.. " eh kenapa air ni x pns pon?" then we knew, it's (heater) day has come, RIP heater.
Btw, it solved! we bought new heater at the price of RM33 from the shops nearby. Now we can enjoy hot drinks again!

3- lamps! lampu dlm satu bilik tu mmg dah out a long time ago n we did nothing just..let it be..since we didn't use that room much other than for ironing purposes je. But worse! lampu bilik air lip lap lip lap! and last two days I bought the starter, (we guesses it's the starter problem!) n actually it is not! still lip lap lip lap lagi! huaaa! n now! stress with the lampu! susah la kalu nk g toilet mlm2! n now we assumed that it is the 'lamp' problem. bila nak ganti? later lah

4- what more? ahah...this is interesting! Among the three, I was the one who supposed to manage the finance of the house, pay rental, pay the bills(internet, TNB etc..), so we paid the bills, online! (wanita kerjaya x smpat g byr dkt kaunter! :p) n then...CIMB does not gives any alerts/notice that TNB has received our payment though they said, TNB will alert us on Tuesday! :P Homai! n on Wednesday, I went back early from office n masuk dgn gembiranya, switch on the tv, pfft! no sound, (ok...our TV mmg kdg2 ada sound kdg xde) n no lights also.., check the switch, its' on! check the next switch (where I plugged in my charger--my charger got lights!hehhe) but no light! mean..not on! so check the fan, lamps all off! check the switch board! eh it's On! so what's the prob! I was so gelabah nak mati!thought that TNB has cut down our electric! cek outside, the neighbours seems nice n normal, the whether is nice.. so.. (dlm hati fikir mst mlm ni bergelap, got lots of work to do, no candles, how to online? mesti fiza n farhana balik mrh2..) then straightly dgn yakin seyakin-yakinnya called TNB careline! asked for the status of our bills. I told that carelines yg I paid the bills online, n I am not sure whether btul ke x TNB got my payments since this is my first time (gelabah nak mati mak cik ni) n then I told him, balik rumah xde elektrik, my elektrik kena potong ke? since the DB pon On semua, he said everything is ok, we have no outstanding payment pon! all clear..so? and he said that nnt lagi sejam our TNB crew akan dtg umah cek...so I bit relief lah..at least I don't have to call any electrician untuk cek umah ni ( trust me, I don't know which electrician to call for other than TNB!) n then, tiba2 keluar umah, spontaneously tertanya pak cik sebelah...ada elektrik tak kat umah.. n then pak cik tu ckp 

"aah, mmg xde elektrik dr petang td, sbb ada gangguan kat dpn sana, diorang tgh baiki!" wth! (that moment..mmg memaki n mengutuk diri sndri yg gelabah biawak x tentu pasal!) n turut mmbuatkan housmate lg 2 org gelabah...sbb mengenangkan ada org nak dtg umah, umah dgn seleraknya haih!

n then wait for few minutes, (15 minit je) elektrik dah ok! terus call TNB utk batalkan report! mesti electrician tu memamki hamun aku ni! menyusahkan kerja dia..bila 2 org tu balik..told them the story! perghhh pedih kena perli! :P

ok..saya mmg gelabah...ni x update kat fb sbb taw nnt mst kena perli n mls nk terangkan pjg2 so...this story is exclusive dkt sini je :P

tu ceritanya hidup sendiri...
note : kitorg ni semua anak sulong n hidup plak mmg biasa dgn mak n abah ada skali...this is the first time kitorg hdup sndri n trust me! it ain't easy! sgt2 sgt2 ssh!n merana too! I hope lps ni nak balik umah je dok kat kedah...dok umah mak..lagi sng.. tapi smlm Fiza ajak keje kat KL lpas graduate...untuk amik pengalaman...huaaaaa :"(  

i don't know...
pengalaman...experience..itu sweet n bermakna, mengajar kita satu erti hidup yg buku , or professor hebat mcm mn pon x dpt bagi... betul? :)

that's why it's call..life is too sweet to make it complicated n I am trying to live a 'sweet' life though it's tough n complicated, I'll turn it to sweet sweet things so that I can smile always n take it as..nice/good moral values :P